Stupid stupid stupid

Here's thanking all my friends who have advised me along these years and whose advice I can only proudly put as the title of this blog. I know there many categories of people. All with a different mind set, opinions about morality, lifestyle, aims and ambitions. Actually most of them have quite different opinions about me as a friend and as an individual . In spite of all that I find such a resemblance in all the advice I have ever received. And it's not the opinions about how I am an emotional fool or that I speak too much, because i already know and accept that completely. It's about how I think this world would turn out for me and how I accept to wait for that hope....just existing ...waiting...not living but not giving up either for that personal utopia to arrive.
And I know how they are right to say what they do from what they hear. I am also sure that what they know is also quite honest a truth. I am not quite sure that I could ever express why I exist this way....in spite of my infamous trait of articulating and 'speaking too much'.
I do feel sorry that I am not able to live up to their advice while knowing that all their words are only directed at my well being.
I know that their will be a time when I would have to stop existing in my dream...when I would have to decide...quite decisively. Yes I can't see myself with that courage now nor do I have the heart to ever wake up from my dream. It's the only dream that I have wanted to live for. How can I?
So let me ask for forgiveness from my friends for being so. I hope they realize that my surrender for my dream is all I have and that if I found any other way, I would have listened to them.
And most of all, please let my fate not put any remorse/ failure at your end. Because no matter what you have been the reason of all those moments of life in my existence.
Thank you