For what its worth

I know that life can never be what it was a second ago. It can be similar , but never the same. Feeling once felt, pleasures once had are all just imprints on one's hearts. One tries to erase the bad imprints that were caused by actions that can not be undone, words that can't go back and situations that scar your heart forever. One may try to hide it and one can surely do a good job. But its just hiding, not erasing. All this makes those special moments even much more valuable than they seem to be. The fact that you are not going to retain it, it's surely going to change. The same reason should apply to why people should not feel too low when down because it's surely going to change.

It fears me, to the extent of breaking me many times over that I can not try to hide a portion of my scars. One tries to fool himself , tries real hard, and it does work because there's no way that a logical heart would ever live for more than second. If for ever I try being logical, there is absolutely no way that one would put one's life on for some permanent bliss to arrive someday. But you convince yourself that there is just one little tiny portion of your existence that you would secure one day and it would stay as good as ever even if the rest of your existence changes upside down. The only logic in this wait for bliss is ....."It needs to happen just once".

And for what it's worth I will always be there waiting :)