Change

There are some mistakes in life that I fear committing the most, but unfortunately they happen to be the mistakes that I am most likely to commit. I had always felt that if one has to censure one's thoughts, words, behavior, expressions...that would be nothing else but faking. But can it be labeled as change, sacrifice or betterment? May be or may be not.
This is precisely the question that I have been asking myself over and over again. I am quite sure of one thing, that i wouldn't have called most of my original actions as a mistake if it were not for the people around me. And I also accept that on more than one occasion, I have found out that when people point out such actions as 'mistakes', they have quite good reasons for feeling so. I accept the reason not because i understand it all the times, but because i trust the people and that they wouldn't fake a reason.
The chances of committing those mistakes are higher primarily because how often and how frequently can one switch from his thinking to the expectation of the person in front of him. This raises an even more important doubt, if i do want to be good or let's say fair in the way that i treat people, how should i act. Is it nice to become the reflection of that person itself, hence implying a tit for tat. Or should i become the reflection of the expectations the person lays in front of me. Or i should stay the way i think I am generally. I guess most times the decision is really spontaneous. And that decision isn't an absolute one. One switches back n forth with every action between the many roles. It is only when almost every act of your's are criticized by a critic whose integrity you can't or don't want to doubt, that you see yourself fall in the spiral of self-doubt all the time.
I guess self doubt is also a part of the change