Pain (continued)

I quite clearly remember the last time i used this title for a blog, I was more worried than anything. But somehow my experience has increased and from worry I have moved on to acceptance of this pain as a part of my a bad day. Something that i would never get rid of. To be very frank, I do think that I would always want the ability to feel such pain which is not the same thing is wanting to feel the pain. But i do need that assurance that there are still things in my life that effect me so much.
The relation between the pain and pleasure is more or less direct. Pain comes from always the same sources as pleasure. So if i make myself immune from pain, i am making myself immune of the greatest pleasures in my life as well. And i would risk getting hurt a million times for that one chance of true happiness. At least now I think so. I just wish in all my acts, if i cant bring happiness to other people's life, I would try really hard not to ever cause that pain